She arrived on the dot of 2pm Thursdays. We sat where we had before and went over questions we've answered several times before. The dog was thinking we were eating and not inviting him. The cats hid for fear that someone was here to well give them a vaccination. We had questionnaires to fill out and tons of things to explain. She had said several times that she doesn't see anything wrong and isn't disturbed by anything that came back. I have to make a call because my doctor hasn't sent my physical back. Both our jobs haven't sent the forms in. She says that isn't a big deal she can fax the form if she needs to.
The questions are intense and sometimes I feel like I'm not answering them the greatest. I feel judged and on the spot. I am thinking that is normal. That you can't help but feel that way when someone digs into your life. I told her I was an open book and mentioned things I'm sure she wasn't expecting. We each have a past that we can't erase and can only look forward. I can't change the way things happened or how I reacted, but can promise that I have learned from things and will do much better next time.
It still doesn't feel real. So when she was asking about what we would do with the child I am like ummm daycare of course. If the child is school age then he/she would need after care. She was taken back that the school is so close to us. It hit me that summer is going to be very tricky. I did find several summer camps. Here is the tricky part. I don't know what age, when, or boy or girl. I take the information I can and have several options available. I keep thinking this could happen really soon and I need to be prepared as best as I can. I blank on this flyer we received about a place that offers childcare in between school breaks or when camps are in session. Do you think I can possibly remember that? That would be no. They also provide daycare on snow days. I will be paying close attention this year to have just in case that comes to be an issue.
I did tell her that breakfast and really any meal is important. To sit down start the day with a good breakfast. Lunch on the weekends or holidays when the child is home. Dinner around the table to discuss our days and find out what's happening. A set time for bed you know all that stuff.
Bat cat aka Stormy thinks the bed in the red room is for her and she is enjoying sun bathing. She loves her bed and Batman. Who knew? This child is in for a treat with all our animals and their personalities. They will be scared at first but another person to eat with, walk with, cuddle with, feed me treats, play with me, and so on they will love.
We start our PRIDE training on Jan 28th. 27 hours and I already know the woman who is teaching the course. The social worker comes back on March 7th. We should be completed then and get a Homestudy shortly after and hopefully know by April. Maybe perhaps give or take a few weeks. If we fail the Homestudy or can't get forms that will hold everything up. Sooner or later. As my support group says don't give up, have faith, and make sure to go out with your hubby as often as you can. They say once you have kids that doesn't always happen.
Great group last night. I will post more about that later but need to make the cookies I promised someone.
Not sure if anyone reads these posts. I'm busy looking up advice or anything I can get for the child now. So far I am not coming up with much of anything. I find projects to make for someones future baby. Okay cookie time!
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