Q and A that i've been asked Part 1

These have been some questions I've been asked and some that I have been thinking about.

1) Have you thought about having your own kids?

Seriously? Is what comes to mind when I hear that. Hubby and I haven't been to open with others about our journey and the total of what we've been through. The medications and doctors is enough to drive anyone crazy. I want to be a mother and whether that child comes from my uterus or my heart it will be my child or (children).

2) How long will it take for you to get a child?

I don't know the answer to that because not even the state knows the answer. We at one time were told 4 years. Yes 4 years. The usual "good news is you are both young." Unless of course you go to a fertility doctor and it's omg we have to hurry your eggs may expire. I truly hope it doesn't take 4 years and though the waiting scares me because I don't know and I don't know how to prep for the child. I want to be prepared but this with the age gap and time makes it hard.

3) What if a family member or friend isn't accepting of the child? What will you do?

I really hope that doesn't happen and have such faith that all family and friends will be on board especially when they meet the child.  If  we reach a point where we have an issue with someone we will make sure to go over the situation together away from the child. Decide who is better to approach the family member or friend. If after that the situation still doesn't change then again together will go over things and express to this person that if it continues we may have to distances ourselves from them until they are willing to accept the child. My child will be my priority and if someone in my family or circle of friends isn't accepting to them then I really have to evaluate our relationship. I really hope that doesn't happen. 

4) Will you continue to work after you have a child?

I have been asked this so much. Yes I plan on continuing to work even after we have a child. It would be nice to have the ability to be a stay at home but my job has the benefits and even though I don't make that much I still couldn't afford to not have it. I am unsure how much time I can take off. I don't have maternity leave but am hoping for whatever time I can get off.

5) Are you excited?

Yes. Thrilled beyond belief but I'm terrified that something won't go our way and we won't be able to adopt. I know i'm such a downer.

6) Are you scared?

Oh my yes! I'm afraid i'm going to fail at this, i'm afraid the child is going to hate me, i'm afraid things won't work out, and I have so many fears that it would take me so long to post.


Time out to get a shower and maybe do some more housework before eventually getting to bed.