Seriously? We want him to look at the forms we have but will not give him the forms........

I get to work only to discover my cellphone is missing. I forgot to put it in my purse. Silly me. I call my husband who is like superman and gets it here in lightning speed with the dog in the passenger seat. I see that it’s flashing “voicemail” I cringe because this can’t be good. I call the voicemail and guess who? It’s the agency to telling me to call them back and sorry she missed me before work. I call her back thinking oh this should be fun….. The agency representative that I’ve been dealing with for months answers asking me how I am and jumps right into it before I have a chance to mumble good fine indifferent hanging in there. So they had a conference about my case yesterday. Woo who just what you want to hear. I imagine a ton of people in a conference room judging me so on and so forth with a picture on a monitor reading stuff from my “file.” They will not be forwarding the documents and reports to my psychologist who did the evaluation because they are third parties and aren’t able to give my personal information out. I have to get the dr to request the forms that the agency wants him to read in the first place from the facilities directly. By the way they are sending out my withdrawal letter today as they tell me everyday for the past few weeks. I said yes ok the entire time. She said don’t get discouraged. I might have laughed because I feel this is so backwards. My feelings that I’m entitled to have. I’m upset and disappointed that I stayed on top of this for them to turn around in the 11^th hour and give me hurdle after hurdle and hi the agency is the ones holding us up. I don’t believe they will be satisfied when they get the evaluation nothing has satisfied them thus far. Their interest is in the protection of the children. I have to often wondered if it’s more about covering their legal bum. You have to sit back and wonder when will it be enough? When will they be able to check of their boxes and proceed? I again have to leave it to faith and trust the process. As she ends the call she says “stay in touch…” Ummm okay yeah.

Can I also point out that we’ve been going through this so much that some of the forms they requested have expired so I am aware and have the copies but I’m wondering ummm have you really “looked” in my file if you haven’t figured it out yet? I feel like If I wasn't on top of everything as I am this could have gone another way. Who will ever know. I want to record what they say and play it back to them to see if they hear themselves sometimes when they speak.

Just keep pushing on........