By it's I mean pregnancy and by everywhere I mean where everywhere I look. Since everything is at an absolute standstill with the agency I'm just I don't know if sensitive is the word or just like "when is it going to be my turn?" Yes I know my day will hopefully come, and I will be so over come with joy to see my child. It's just that for the time being I'm finding it hard to not say anything when someone sits down and complains that they are pregnant because it's the last thing they wanted and they weren't even trying. I'm like a www I can totally relate oh no that's right I can't. I almost feel like saying "well you weren't trying not to have a baby. Unless you don't understand how babies are made?" I let it go and don't say anything otherwise you are "labeled" the bitter infertile who know no one talks to because they are afraid of pissing you off. I still say that a big mistake was getting certified to install car seats because sometimes the people you encounter can be frustrating. More "we weren't even trying and boom. you can relate right?" I feel bad for you son I got 99 problems but a baby in my uterus ain't one.
Please don't get me wrong I don't sit around feeling sorry for myself or hate pregnant women. I have been truly happy for everyone that I know that's having a baby. Lord these days I know a lot. I'm allowed to have days and moments where I'm frustrated with the world and how at the moment I feel trapped. If the second place could cooperate with giving me my medical records instead of skirting around the issue or making it difficult. How hard is it to scan a document to the off site location?
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