A woman who is normally at work so early never showed, she didn't call on the sick list, she wasn't listed in our system as being off, and no one had spoken to her in over a week. Two officers went to check on her, and we were told we would be updated. Everyone moved along with the morning. Surely their was some reason and maybe any second she would walk through the door. Then a few minutes later we were called into the conference room and told to grab some tissues. A woman screamed "No!" Tears falling from her face. I knew before we were told she had passed away. I am at a loss for words. This cannot be real. I heard the words I heard them talking but they have to be wrong. I stared at the table and caught the shimmer of the ceiling light as it reflected off the shine of the table. I'm sick to my stomach and am on a rollercoaster of emotions. We all are. Her second daughter is set to marry in a month. She was so excited and so happy. Death is a part of life that I don't think I can ever fully accept. Grief comes at us in different stages and different ways. By processing this and going through the waves hopefully this will help. She wouldn't want us to dwell she wouldn't want it effecting our work she would be so mad if she knew that we were called into the conference room.
You don't know when you are going to go. So it shows me that not to sweat the small stuff and enjoy the little things. We say that but I am reminded you just never know.
Okay time to get ready for bed.
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