I don't know if i'm reading to much into this or maybe it's just all around me. I guess I expected family to be more "interested" or "involved" in the process of adoption. I don't know that some really get it or why we have to the conclusion that we have. Maybe they are scared to ask maybe we haven't been to forward maybe something else is causing them not to ask about anything.
I can tell you one family member who anytime I try to say something this person takes everything and makes it about them and then goes on this rant about something they are going through. Hi I'm adopting through the state and doing something that is so far out of my comfort zone jumping through hoops that may or may not result in a child but please lets talk about you and what is happening in your life.
Also I find they assumption that we are going to get a new born. Yeah that's not likely and something that doesn't even seem to be an option. So when people want to give us things meant for an itty bitty baby i'm like no we are most likely not going to get an infant. It's hard to say how old that child will be but it's most likely not going to require to much of baby stuff. Then again you just never know.
I am not going to say anything to family because I get that everyone has things going on in there life but when I hear some comments I immediately tense up because I just wonder. Do you get it?
Chances are they aren't saying things to hurt me but sometimes it feels that way.
The journey to anything in my life has not been without issues and a very tough rough road. I can't wait till this is just a memory of saying "remember when we thought we would never see this day..." I feel in some ways I have to stay guarded. I'm spinning in circles.
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