So much to update and no time to do it

My hope is that this blog turns into a scrapbook to be handed down to any and all future children so that if they ever want to read about how much they were loved and wanted before they were even here they can. Also it provides some much needed therapy for myself to get out what at the time I'm thinking/feeling. I would like to give this out to others to see but then I fear a few things about that but I most likely will. My feeling is if you want to see my journey click and read if you would rather not then don't click. It's purely up to the person how involved they would like to be. I can't believe I spelled involved correctly it doesn't look right but anyway so of course focus! I don't want people to feel that need to rescue me or walk on egg shells around me. Maybe I should come with a sign that tells you what my mood is and a color associated with whether you should proceed with caution, totally okay, don't even talk to me and so on. I have to upload some photos, music videos, and Penelope the Piggie which was not something I was looking for and bam found her. She will be kept close by for a long time. Next post I will explain her better unless you have seen my facebook update in which case you know who she is.