Adoption?

This is something we have flipped back and forth on. What scares me? After you pick yourself up from the financial costs it's what I think or worry will happen if we adopt. That after preparing for a forever home the child/children are ripped out of it. Slowly processing all the information i'm being provided it's very overwhelming. The thought that maybe this will build the steps that allows the ability to connect to the bridge that takes me to my children would be awesome. I'm jumping ahead. You want to know that the decision that you have made is one that you will not regret. Weird things happened after I decided "let's explore this option like really dive into the whole thing and see if this is something we can do..." Two songs came on "outside the fire" Garth Brooks and "A new day has come" Celine Dion. Well maybe just nothing more than timing........