What's a song that helps me get through the hard times of this process?

Eye of The Tiger!!!!

Dahhhh doo dah dah

I see some of the words aren't spelled correctly....ahh you get the drift.

Your Gonna Be Video and Lyrics

6lbs and 9oz. lookin' up at me
Like I have all the answers
I hope I have the ones you need
I've never really done this, now I know what scared is

Sometimes I'll protect you from everything that's wrong
Other times I'll let you just find out on your own
But that's when you'll be growin',
And the whole time I'll be knowin

CHORUS:
You're gonna fly with every dream you chase
You're gonna cry, but know that that's okay
Sometimes life's not fair, but if you hang in there
You're gonna see that sometimes bad is good
We just have to believe things work out like they should
Life has no guarantees, but always loved by me
You're gonna be

I'm afraid you'll have to suffer through
some of my mistakes
Lord knows I'll be trying to give you what it takes
What it takes to know the difference
Between getting by and livin'

‘Cause anything worth doing is worth doing all the way
Just know you'll have to live with all
the choices that you make
So make sure you're always givin' way
more than you're takin'

REPEAT CHORUS

Someone's everything
You're gonna see
Just what you are to me

You're gonna fly with every dream you chase
We just have to believe things work out like they should
Life has no guarantees, but always loved by me
You're gonna be
Always loved by me

Piece of Chocolate

Just needed something sweet before bed. I don't have that every night but needed it tonight. Not in bed yet but already feeling like tomorrow is going to be a long day exhausting day. I feel like it's the same go to sleep / wake up exhausted / rush out the door / come across issues at work / somehow get through the day / go home deep breathe / go to bed. Start all over again.

I know I always have an ambitious list of things to do that don't all get done. After all it's ambitious lol.

I had something started about somethings I've heard over the past couple of weeks. People having matches that fail and not being picked by birth parents. It's sad and very discouraging by yet it seems like most can pick the pieces up and keep going. I won't have the being picked by birth parents. By the time the children will get to us the birth parents won't have a say. Of course one has to get through the paperwork and mountains that are in front of us. Ahh yes medical records. Did I dream the conversation where it seemed like everything was find, and it was just days away from getting the forms? I hope that wasn't a dream. I had talked myself out of believing that the homestudy process would start up again. Even stopped making the effort to put stuff out of reach. Cause I really doubt it's going to be that easy.

I dunno.

I'm exhausted and my brain/body need to rest up.

Did you know it's administrative day tomorrow? Yeah well that means our bosses are buying us lunch no crap brain breakfast! They are buying us breakfast and coffee. MMMMMMMMM I love coffee.

When do you think I will actually get the forms?
When all is said and done and the agency has their evaluation what will be there next road block? Survey says!!!!! 

Update on Status of Records

Until I actually get these records in my hand I won't believe it. I called to check the status of my record request which was processed in their computer 4/15/13 and they indicate I should be receiving them in a few days. I happened to have off next Thursday because of dentist drama. I don't think they can actually mail them to me because of the fee associated with the forms. Unless they send me an invoice. I have a hard time believing the forms are this easy to get. 

Question: If I got all the forms in a matter of a two weeks. Why did it take my caseworker 4 months?

Random Fact of the Night

I am just not into Birthdays or anniversaries. Maybe because I thought things would be different by this time with the process of adopting. Maybe I'm just to hormonal at the moment. Maybe I'm being dumped on in other areas of my life that I'm just not in the mood. Who knows. Sorry it's not meant to annoy anyone just not feeling it. Usually I'm all about wishing everyone happy birthdays and celebrating but not this year. I'd like to postpone birthdays until further notice.

Keep Your Head Up (Lyrics & Video)

I've been waiting on the sunset
Bills on my mindset
I can't deny they're getting high
Higher than my income
Incomes bread crumbs
I've been trying to survive

The glow that the sun gets
Right around sunset
Helps me realize
This is just a journey
Drop your worries
You are gonna turn out fine.
Oh, you turn out fine.
Fine, oh, you turn out fine.

But you gotta keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down, eh.
You gotta keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down, eh.

I know it's hard, know it's hard,
To remember sometimes,
But you gotta keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down, eh.

I've got my hands in my pockets,
Kicking these rocks.
It's kinda hard to watch this life go by.
I'm buying into skeptics,
Skeptics mess with, the confidence in my eyes

I'm seeing all the angles, starts to get tangled
I start to compromise
My life and the purpose.
Is it all worth it?
Am I gonna turn out fine?
Oh, you'll turn out fine.
Fine, oh, you'll turn out fine.

But you gotta keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down, eh.
You gotta keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down, eh.

I know it's hard, know it's hard,
To remember sometimes,
But you gotta keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down, eh.

Only rainbows after rain
The sun will always come again.
It's a circle, circling,
Around again, it comes around again.
I said,

Only rainbows after rain
The sun will always come again.
It's a circle, circling,
Around again, it comes around,

But you gotta keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down, eh.
You gotta keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down, eh.

I know it's hard, know it's hard
To remember sometimes,
But you gotta keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down, eh.

Keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down, eh.
Keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down, eh.
Keep your head up, oh,
And you can let your hair down.
I said oooh

Twenty Things Adopted Kids Wish Their Adoptive Parents Knew

20 things listed
This was our workshop last night based on this book. 
Something to read with the book
 Interesting Website
Suggested books to read for adults and children about adoption
Foster/Adoptive Reading List
Will Update If I find any other websites.