Standing outside the fire (music video)

 I feel sometimes that we are standing outside the fire.....................


We call them cool
Those hearts that have no scars to show
The ones that never do let go
And risk the tables being turned

We call them fools
Who have to dance within the flame
Who chance the sorrow and the shame
That always comes with getting burned

But you've got to be tough when consumed by desire
'Cause it's not enough just to stand outside the fire

We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall

We call them weak
Who are unable to resist
The slightest chance love might exist
And for that forsake it all

They're so hell-bent on giving ,walking a wire
Convinced it's not living if you stand outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

There's this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly higher and higher
I can't abide
Standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

No Fear (music video)

 Lyrics:

I want a road streching out before me
I want a radio in my ear
I want a full tank of absolution
No fear

I want a rain storm to pull me over
Then a sky that begins to clear
Towards the truest of destinations
No fear

I used hit every wall there was
I used to run away from love
All I ever wanted was right here
But I had to reach way down inside
I had to have faith I'd find
No fear

I want the world to just keep on turning
I want the dawn in my rear view mirror
I want to hear my own voice singing
No fear

And when I need two arms around me
And there's no one near
When I'm alone let the only sound be
No fear

I used to hit every wall there was
I used to run away from love
All I ever wanted was right here
But I had to reach way down inside
I had to have faith I'd find
No fear

I want peace, love, and understanding
A stogie and an ice cold beer
Don't wanna live afraid of dying

I used to hit every wall there was
I used to run away from love
All I ever wanted was right here
But I had to reach way down inside
I used to stay up all night long
Wondering what I was doing wrong
All I ever needed was right here
But I had to reach way down inside
I had to have faith I find
No fear
No fear
No fear

No Less Than a Woman (music video)

She is awesome. If the song doesn't thrill you I invite you to google the lyrics. Because it's awesome!

Here you go:

Verse 1:
Infertility is a word that a lot of people are ashamed to mention, a lot of people are so illiterate when it come to that word. They act as if it's a crime if you can't have a child. But I don't think so, I don't have a child, I may one day. But in the mean time I am going to share all my love.


Chorus:
Not having a child don't make me any less than a woman, you see I got so much love to give, to so much unwanted kids, you can say all you want about me trying and ruin my reputation, ah still got so much love to give to so much unwanted kids, listen to my song.


Verse 2:
I may not know the joy of giving birth, may not experience the pain and all the hurt, but I know how it feels to lose a child, and if pain is pain then I am hurting inside. If infertility makes me less than a girl, what would you say to many women in this world. Would you tell them have faith, would you tell them be strong or would you tell them that they're less than a woman?


Chorus


Verse 3:
I would give anything to have a child of my own but in the meantime let me share my happy home with the less fortunate, take away some of the stress from a child who has never known love and happiness. Miscarriages remind me of baby carriages. of Broken hearts, short flings,failed marriages, the pain never go away, we try to keep them at bay. Oh I wish if my baby could have stayed.


Chorus


Verse 4:
Some people have kids and wish them never did, some kids grew up hating the life weh them live, some have it easy, some have it hard, some mothers abandon dem pickney like dawg. But wanti wanti dem can't get it and getti getti get and run weh lef eeh. Me nuh have none so you know me will take eeh me have a lot of love so send me little Becky Ann.


Chorus


Verse 5:
You see, what I am saying is this song is dedicated to all the females who have been trying to have children but never succeed. Some have miscarriage just like myself, but you know what, don't give up, have faith, one day you may just succeed. You know what I'm saying, and don't feel you are less than a woman because you don't have a child 'cause once you give you love to other children that come. You know what I'm saying.

Another Amazing Quote

"i just want my smile on your face too" <==== that makes me cry

Yes we hope for that too....We thank you all for the unspoken love and  support.

Miscarriage my fear

Ok so i'm posting a lot i'm sorry......


I get from time to time people who say "don't you want your own kids..." when I say i'm adopting. I channel the person who gave me a key piece of advice. That people will say things and rather then get mad at them it's a time to "educate" them. If I adopt a child then it will be my child. It is my own child whether you see it or not. I heard stories recently of people who were pregnant but miscarried the child. The devastation and  heartbreak tore me apart. Unfortunately i've never been pregnant and never suffered a miscarriage but the devastation of not being able to get pregnant has haunted me enough that I'm afraid terrified of a miscarriage. A reproductive endocrinologist explained to me that it's natures way of ending a pregnancy that isn't right. Of course he's a male has no uterus and read that explanation out of a text book and while I get that it doesn't make it any less painful. Adoption is a bright light to a tunnel that has been filled with such darkness. I do not have to dope myself up on hormones that in the long run may cause me to battle a disease. It's a small world when you come across someone who had the same doctor as you and now she's having a double mastectomy and fighting for her life because of the hormones she was on to have her daughter. I want to be there for my child. I saw a celebrity recently who discovered she had breast cancer. She didn't go to much into it but she had been on so many hormones. So on the side of being afraid of cancer and miscarriages.

I would love to have experienced pregnancy once in my life. If that isn't the way it works then I have to believe that it wasn't meant to be that way. Adoption means that a child who is already  born doesn't have a forever family and we want a forever family hello.

To get me to you.... (music video)

This is a song that I listen to when I am down and think yes I will not regret the rain or the nights I felt the pain all the tears I had to cry so much times along the way every road I had to take every time my heart would break it was just something that I had to get to to get me to you........

P.S. this song makes me cry...... 

I just haven't met you yet (music video)

Oh yes I promise you kid i'll give so much more than I get I just haven't met you yet.......