The cats got their shots. Amen!!

It started really easy waking up and somehow they all were in the yellow room aka the dining room. I had to wear gloves and got all the cats. Now this sums up pretty quickly and if you ask my husband he will tell you it was easy. Yes the vet came to the house, yes they all were in one room, yes they all ended up getting their shots, and yes it's finished. The first one was the easiest and i'm sure they didn't understand. Stormy was the issue and the one I was most concerned with. She tried running into windows and doors to escape and ended up a little banged up the vet checked and said she was ok. IF she wasn't I was going to have to catch her again tranquilizer her and he could do his magic. This should be the hardest part of the process and yes I'm so thankful that it is behind us. When he said they need teeth cleanings next time I started to laugh because I was really crying on the inside. Did I mention they were Ferrel cats? I can't do this again. If I have to I will. Actually since my husband said it was so busy. He didn't catch the cats, he didn't get them in a room, he didn't hold them down as they were getting examined,  and he didn't get bitten and clawed from Stormy.

In a turn of events Stormy is now my best friend.   

so much to reflect on but no time to do it.

Excuse me while I adjust myself so that my cat on my lap who is prrring away can rest. After the vet coming to the house tomorrow she may not be on my lap. Yes our cats our getting vaccinated tomorrow morning and I am freaking out. You try rallying up 3 cats one who is terrified of her own shadow into a room with a guy in a white lab coat with needles. The dog will be here too. It's going to be a blast. Luckily it's first thing in the am and out of the way. Oh dear me I hope it's quick and painless.

My doctors appointment was long and went well. My physical is good and I was signed off. Another mountain climbed and another thing to be done in this process.

The car passed inspection woot woot! It's a red sticker which oddly looks like the rejection sticker. I don't like that. It bothers me. Red I guess symbolizes me bad rejection naughty anxious feelings.

Verizon fios is coming out to add another coax cable so that we can take the router and wireless thingie out of the red room. Because the red room needs to be free and clear of personal items.  That's proving to be a lot of moving around and adjusting. I know this is never going to be boom little bit of time done. Pebbles would prefer if I focused the attention on her at the moment. "Hello adorable pretty purring kitty who deserves all the attention."

Hope Faith Blau

A new screen name I have on an adoption site. Since that's what i'm running on faith and hope. :)

Savannah?

A few days ago the name Savannah popped into my head and I don't know why. I'm not sure it has any meaning at all. I just keep thinking that is what my future daughters name is. For all I know I am probably completely off course. That's ok. as 2012 closes and 2013 enters i'm thinking this may actually be our year. It would be nice and always great to be hopeful but it may not and I get that. The last 4 and half years have taught me anything it's to never assume something will happen but be realistic but not to much where it cuts you off from reality. Well it would be nice but I don't need to say that anymore in this process.

The linen closet is done for the time being. Maybe the red room will be transformed tomorrow. Wouldn't it be nice? 

I found some adoption blogs

Darn @@@@@@@@ I had a whole post written and it deleted. Darn you laptop!

I found some adoption blogs and reading them has been helpful. To see people where I am now and where I will hopefully end up. With a forever child to add to our household.

So much to do and so little time. I have a 54 page thingy to fill out. Have to go to bed soon before I delete this one too.

I guess I expected more interest

I don't know if i'm reading to much into this or maybe it's just all around me. I guess I expected family to be more "interested" or "involved" in the process of adoption. I don't know that some really get it or why we have to the conclusion that we have. Maybe they are scared to ask maybe we haven't been to forward maybe something else is causing them not to ask about anything. 

I can tell you one family member who anytime I try to say something this person takes everything and makes it about them and then goes on this rant about something they are going through. Hi I'm adopting through the state and doing something that is so far out of my comfort zone jumping through hoops that may or may not result in a child but please lets talk about you and what is happening in your life.

Also I find they assumption that we are going to get a new born. Yeah that's not likely and something that doesn't even seem to be an option. So when people want to give us things meant for an itty bitty baby i'm like no we are most likely not going to get an infant. It's hard to say how old that child will be but it's most likely not going to require to much of  baby stuff. Then again you just never know.

I am not going to say anything to family because I get that everyone has things going on in there life but when I hear some comments I immediately tense up because I just wonder. Do you get it?

Chances are they aren't saying things to hurt me but sometimes it feels that way.

The journey to anything in my life has not been without issues and a very tough rough road. I can't wait till this is just a memory of saying "remember when we thought we would never see this day..." I feel in some ways I have to stay guarded. I'm spinning in circles.

Thunder and sirens oh my.....

It seems in the matter of a few minutes things went kinda crazy. Our thermostat seems to be working with heating system. I thought my husband was intercoming me. I was actually but intercoming myself as I had both phones with me lol. Outside suddenly a flash of light followed by big booms and animals going crazy. Now sirens and heavy rain mixed with wind... It's december people. What the fudge? Not a fan of this weather. I hate wind with the trees outside because I fear it falling somewhere bad and hurting something someone. Making it nearly impossible to move forward with adoption. Please oh please lets get through this. Haven't we had enough of this already? I found myself gathering up the matches, candles, and lighters. Hey when you have your power disappear for as long as sandy life is never the same when any storm hits. Prayers this ends peacefully. May the force be with us all......