Last Puzzle Piece To The Homestudy

As good news rolls in bad news creeps in behind it. Our Homestudy should have been completed by now, but dyfs is missing on last puzzle piece. The doctor who did my evaluation and started us up in the process again isn't returning calls from me or my caseworker. He isn't providing the evaluation, and if dyfs doesn't get it in the next few weeks we will be disqualified or our application withdrawn again. I am hoping this gets straightened out. I haven't had a breakdown freak out yet because I'm attempting to be optimistic. Applying twice in one year is already stressful without the added ugg grr hiss moments. Positive vibes and thoughts!

It took about a dozen or so calls to find someone willing to do the evaluation. I got a least a dozen no's before I found him. I really hope he is putting finishing touches on it or maybe he will return from vacation Monday and pass it to me. I'm hoping for the best.

Songs for this week (off of my Journey Playlist)

 

Feels Like Home - with lyrics 

 

 Second video of the song "Feels Like Home" set to the notebook.
I have a playlist called Journey which has a bunch of songs that I have listened to depending upon my part of the Journey to parenthood I have been on. These are a few of them. Actually just about all of the songs I posted are on my playlist.

Home (Yeah I have posted this song before) "Pay no mind to the demons they fill you with fear. Know you're not alone I'm gonna make this house your home..."
Taking you Home - Don Henley  Taking You Home Video
I have listened to this song so many times. Today I found these lyrics like it was the first time I ever heard them.
"Maybe you reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it's time you'll know"
Firework - Katy Perry Firework Lyrics Link

New Remote

I say "honey I ordered a new remote it should be here in 3 to 7 business days"
To which he responds "I told you it could be done through the menu bar on the TV."
I say back "so remind me why you didn't do it?"
Crickets chirping.........
Funny these kind of scenarios weren't in the Disney movies I saw growing up. It's something I guess you get used to and as long as you can laugh about it. Not be insulting have it escalate to something bad then you are good.

That picture that reads "I must have super powers I am the only one who sees the messes, dishes in the sink and laundry."
Yeah gotta get used to that.
This doesn't have really much to do with adoption. This week with Labor Day this weekend has been more exhausting then usual.

Our update on our case is a report that was to be submitted by a doctor hasn't been. Without that our case can not move forward. It's a holiday weekend that most likely means he is away. Not going to the negative debbie downer side. Yet! 

Real Mother

I have to get to sleep so this is going to be super short. Often I hear this "real mother."  For instances "are you afraid the child will ask for their real mother." Really think about those words. I correct without bringing attention to it by saying you mean birth mother. It takes a village to raise a child. I may stop people and ask can you explain what a real mom is? I will be taking care of, pledging to be there for the rest of my life for these children, I will protect them, love them, nurture them, feed them, educate them, make boo boos go away, take care of them when they are sick, run them all over the place with sports and activities, do what I can for them, and so on. So does that doesn't qualify me as a real mom? I'm a pretend mom?

You just want to say please read these articles, books, and educate yourself and then come back to me. This shows me I'm going to have to get used to this and maybe have it said in front of my children.

Try

I can't remember if I have referenced this song Try by Pink. I hear it and think exactly. "You've gotta get up and try..." Not just for adoption but anything in life. It would sometimes be easier to say I can't do this I'm done. Sleep step away but don't give up. The video is a mix of dance with some kind of paint throwing stuff.

 

If you just want the lyrics Lyrics for Try

Random Songs of the Week That I'm Loving August 2013

 

Everything has changed.

This is a newer song that is so pretty

Celine Dion - The Greatest Reward

 
 

I am your child - Barry Manilow

  

Performed on Murphy Brown

 

Music of My Heart 

   

It's time by Imagine Dragons

 

Bring on The Rain

Idea For A Photo

Forever
It should bring you to a picture of a parent and child's hands holding the word forever from scrabble pieces. Isn't that just the cutest?