Monday, June 24, 2013

I'm annoyed

I'm upset annoyed frustrated and disappointed with myself for believing that you would ever see things my way. That you would ever show a small portion of empathy for my situation that you would get it. Sadly I watch as you take everyone's side and excuse them and their choices and brush me off. I thought I could talk to you I thought you would finally say "I get it." You are wrapped up in your own world of "well I didn't get this and I don't get that and no one ever does this for me or that...." Would you like to go there? Would you really like to go back in history and see who hasn't been there for who? Who could really throw the past up of boo hoo. I don't. 

Friday, June 14, 2013

This will make your blood boil

The Picture said: "So it hurts to be infertile and have to hear about other women's pregnancies?
Try being a "birth mother" and having to hear about someone else raising your child."

The Comment by a random uneducated bitter who has some issues of her own "woman": " I think infertile women get off to this, once they get their hands on another's infant. It makes them feel validated. I think it makes them pathetic for expecting someone else to pay for the rest of their lives. I truly believe some of these women get off to the anguish of the natural mother. Sick, despicable human beings."

What I have to say may surprise some people. I was furious annoyed upset and just disgusted. I then realized nothing could be said to this kind of person it would be a waste of my energy. Someone who speaks this way is lacking the education and understanding of what someone goes through  in the infertility journey.  I will always come across people who are supportive and understanding even if they haven't walked a mile in my shoes, and then I will come across someone like this. They are out there maybe bitter about a situation from their past which leads them to say such things. I honestly feel sorry for someone like this.

Birthparents play a very important role. I do not minimize them or forget they exist. I admire their ability to say I love my child so much, and I understand that I can't give them the life they deserve. I will be selfless and put them before myself and give them a better chance. That's amazing, and something I will be so thankful for one day. Here's a great quote....
  “giving up a child is not a selfish act, but rather it is a courageous act of love, on hopes to give their child a better life than what [the parents] thought they could provide.”

We should try to bring each other up not tear each other down. It saddens me that someone would say or think what that random woman did but they do exist as must as I try to think they don't. I would take someone like this on maybe in real life face to face not in the internet world. Sometimes people use the internet to hide behind their words. I doubt she would say anything like this in a public setting. I would take the opportunity to educate her. Of course I have a feeling I'd be better off applying my energy to more positive worthy things. Well you get the drift.

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Support System Are You There?

It's frustrating when you ask for help or advice on adoption groups and forums and no one responds. Like I swear I heard crickets.

At least google, bing and pinterest are there for me. 

Maybe I have to give it more time but this experience is a hell of frustrating to begin with it's just I guess you have to be there.

Watch someone now respond. 

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Eco Socialist Moonbat

Funny quote from Psych.

Just have to wonder

When I flat out ask you question and you don't respond. Maybe you didn't see it yet or maybe your busy or maybe you didn't hear me. Sometimes you just have to wonder......

I'm certain that I'm guilty of it at times, but hey aren't we all? I'm skating between both sides of my own frustration.

This is what happens when you have been on a hormonal rollercoaster for over 2 weeks. It's a dream I tell you. I would like to break up from AF, but she doesn't seem to want to leave me. Hey AF please let go.  

Saturday, May 25, 2013

So Much For A Lazy Saturday

We had a quiet day until my husband decided to go out and mow the lawn. He came running in the house screaming. I jumped up i'm like "what's up."
"your windshield it's smashed"
Yes it was no sign of any type of branch stone or anything in the car. I will tell you the doors were open so who knows. I'm thinking it's more of a freak of nature just kinda happened. I'm thankful no one was in the car or injured in the midst of the pieces of the windshield. Lots of water in the car got the wet vac tried to clean stuff up. Sweaters have to be shaken out and washed. It's frustrating because it has to happen on a holiday weekend where no one is around. Immediately scheduled a company to come out. They will be here Thursday morning. Thank goodness it's a shortened week. Only 2 days of figuring how i'm going to get home. Of course I do live within a 20 to 25 minute walking distance. Thick type of blanket topped with plastic trash bags taped to the back windshield. A lot is damaged, and some will not be able to be saved. It's just how it works. Goodness. Yeah you could still drive the car but with no back windshield and pieces still sharp it's best with this rain and mess that it stays covered.

Thanks to hoarders I'm becoming less attached to items. So the three bears that were in the back of the car I said they are faded covered in glass just toss em. I will put new ones in the back of the car. If I had a small bissell thingy I could really give that car a cleaning.

Please be done with the bad luck. 

A Smile like yours lyrics and song

Beautiful song.
 
Hmm, thought I'd seen everything there was to see in this world
Now I'm not so sure I've really seen anything at all
I thought life could show me no surprises
And then you came and showed me I was wrong
I have seen the bluest skies, rainbows that would make you cry
I have seen miracles that moved my soul, days that changed my life
I have seen the brightest stars shine like diamonds in the dark
Seen all the wonders of the world, but I've never seen a smile
As beautiful as yours, ooh, ooh, ooh, oh, I thought I'd been everywhere
I've climbed a mountain so high, sailed the sea, crossed the sky
And still I was nowhere at all, until that day, oh, you came to my senses
And your smile, it made sense out of it all, (I have seen the bluest skies)
Rainbows that would make you cry, I have seen miracles

(miracles that moved me soul) that moved my soul, days that changed my life,

I have seen the brightest stars shine like diamonds in the dark
Seen all the wonders of the world, but I've never seen a smile as beautiful as yours
(smile so beautiful) so beautiful, comes one time in a lifetime
A smile this beautiful, (a smile this beautiful) I've never dreamed I'd ever see, oh
(I have seen the bluest skies) I have seen it, (rainbows that would make you cry)
That would make you cry, I've seen miracles (miracles) moved my soul,
(days that changed my life) and days that changed my life
I have seen the brightest stars shine like diamonds in the dark
Oh, I've seen the wonders of this world (wonders of the world)
But I've never seen a smile (never seen a smile before as beautiful as yours)
Oh, I've never seen a smile before, (never seen a smile before as beautiful)
As beautiful as yours.