Debbie Downer Has Entered the complex

Positive Patty (that's what I call myself when I'm in a good mood) has left the building and debbie downer ( that's what I call myself when I get sad) has entered the complex. It's official state agency has placed the blame back on me saying they did everything by the book. Quoted more legal terms. They wonder why their aren't enough foster/adoptive families out there. I'm ready to pull our file. So frustrated. Did I mention my birthday is tomorrow? This is crap o la timing. Anyone else frustrated today?

I Knew I Loved You Before I met you

I have always hated this song. Then I heard it attached to adoption and I was like EXACTLY! Close your eyes if you have to and imagine this song about my future child. 1st one is the actual music video second one is a lyric video.

Music of My Heart (lyric video and actual video)

Got the third batch of records.

They should have come from the records department which is in Neptune. From what the voicemail said. Interestingly enough it made a wrong turn to Georgia. I hate when you are going to Neptune and make a wrong turn and end up in Georgia! The end result is I have them. I was sad reading them. I don't think you are ever suppose to see those forms. It is who I was at the time not who I am. I've come a long way from where I was and I'm not going back there EVER!!!!!

I have been saddened and frustrated through this nightmare. Even though I was feeling this way I still went on to work and worked through the days and did what I would do at home and just continue on with life hoping this horrible madness would end. Chores were still done, dinner and meals were still cooked, I still attended work and so on.

the red room remains filled with stuff for the future. Never once did I think of changing it.

Please help us pretty pretty pretty please.....

Update on my adoption saga. Someone within the agency is looking into our file. Hopefully this person can help us. The psychologist doing my evaluation wrote a rebuttal letter to their letter. It's wonderfully written and puts the blame clearly back on the agency where it belongs.  It would be amazing if the person looking into our file saw that letter. Hoping this means good stuff for us. We shall see. Keeping fingers and toes crossed......

I Won't Give Up (Videos)

Exactly we aren't giving up...............

Not One More Form!

My id badge broke at work. You can't access any doors without it. So guess what? I had to get a new one. I call personnel to find out how. Guess what? I have to fill out a form, give it to a supervisor to sign off on, and wait for it to be made. A form? Seriously?

Got the new badge today and all is well and right with the world and I can access my building once again!