Excuse me where is your baby proofing section?

Yes I went to my first store and had to ask that question. They did not but it was asked and that was interesting. So onto Target and we walked the whole store. Where could this section be? Doesn't anyone work here? Suddenly I stop and it hits me maybe the baby proofing is in the baby section. Yes some of it is and there isn't to much but it served the purpose of what I needed. Two more power strips because we can not have extension cords. I mentioned to the hubby that I wasn't sure our garbage can would pass and since we had some money left over on gift cards we got a new affordable trash can. Yes life is so glamorous when you can blog about your pretty new trash can. Hope the state approves.

Green room is my project once I finish blogging because we can't have the verizon fios guy thinking we are slobs. I could care less what this guy thinks of me. I installed seats in cars where parents were apologizing to me because they felt the car wasn't clean. I wasn't worried about their car I was worried about their car seat. Which by the way I went to that aisle and said to the car seats hey so we meet again. My husband shook his head and said he wouldn't want to get the cheapest seat. This is what we are warned about in class people who think that because the seat is super expensive it's great. Let me introduce to my recall list of car seat issues that is over 40 pages long. My car doesn't have the latch system so it means that installing a car seat is going to be a gem of a great time. Locking clips and I will have our reunion since we last were pushed together during class. The option of not having a child who needs a car seat is another thing. I know I mention this time and time again. I'm sorry.

In other news I fear from an email I got that the adoption support group may not be doing so well. I am still new to the group but have so far found it very helpful. When you get to hear in person from others who have been where you are and get it and know what you are going through it's great. A couple of things they need help with I will try and see if I can. I don't want to over step my place as a new member. Will just have to see what develops and go from there.

Song Stop for me (music video lyrics)

I really thought this train would stop for me..................





I had big plans
More powerful than a locomotive
Innocent as a flower growing
In the middle of a barley field
I didn't understand
That you could have pockets overflowing with determination
Give it all you got with no congratulations
And still be at the bottom of the hill
Waiting at the station
With the rails laid out before me
Trying to be patient
Hoping it didn't leave

Sitting on a suitcase
Crossing fingers counting the days til it arrived
I was sure that it was coming
But somehow it just passed me by
Oh how could I be so naive
I always thought this train would stop for me

I had a ticket
That was paid for with my hard earned money
I thought that maybe that would count for something
Wasn't looking for a free ride
But nobody mentioned
ohhh sometimes all the passenger seats are taken
The cars are full and it's a rude awakening
When you're left behind
So disappointed... yeah
I never even got to try
Instead of living in the moment... ohhh
I've been wasting all this time

Sitting on a suitcase
Crossing fingers counting the days til it arrived
Ohhh I was sure that it was coming
But somehow it just passed me by
Oh how could I be so naive
Well I always thought this train would stop for me

Stop, stop, stop, I always
Thought, thought, that it would stop

Sitting on a suitcase
Crossing fingers counting the days til it arrived
Ohhhhhh I was sure that it was coming
But somehow it just passed me by
Oh how could I be so naive

I always thought this train
Yeah I always thought that this train yeah
I always thought this train would stop for me

I thought it would stop for me yeah...

So Hard (music video) Break the silence

Standing outside the fire (music video)

 I feel sometimes that we are standing outside the fire.....................


We call them cool
Those hearts that have no scars to show
The ones that never do let go
And risk the tables being turned

We call them fools
Who have to dance within the flame
Who chance the sorrow and the shame
That always comes with getting burned

But you've got to be tough when consumed by desire
'Cause it's not enough just to stand outside the fire

We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall

We call them weak
Who are unable to resist
The slightest chance love might exist
And for that forsake it all

They're so hell-bent on giving ,walking a wire
Convinced it's not living if you stand outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

There's this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly higher and higher
I can't abide
Standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried, it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

No Fear (music video)

 Lyrics:

I want a road streching out before me
I want a radio in my ear
I want a full tank of absolution
No fear

I want a rain storm to pull me over
Then a sky that begins to clear
Towards the truest of destinations
No fear

I used hit every wall there was
I used to run away from love
All I ever wanted was right here
But I had to reach way down inside
I had to have faith I'd find
No fear

I want the world to just keep on turning
I want the dawn in my rear view mirror
I want to hear my own voice singing
No fear

And when I need two arms around me
And there's no one near
When I'm alone let the only sound be
No fear

I used to hit every wall there was
I used to run away from love
All I ever wanted was right here
But I had to reach way down inside
I had to have faith I'd find
No fear

I want peace, love, and understanding
A stogie and an ice cold beer
Don't wanna live afraid of dying

I used to hit every wall there was
I used to run away from love
All I ever wanted was right here
But I had to reach way down inside
I used to stay up all night long
Wondering what I was doing wrong
All I ever needed was right here
But I had to reach way down inside
I had to have faith I find
No fear
No fear
No fear

No Less Than a Woman (music video)

She is awesome. If the song doesn't thrill you I invite you to google the lyrics. Because it's awesome!

Here you go:

Verse 1:
Infertility is a word that a lot of people are ashamed to mention, a lot of people are so illiterate when it come to that word. They act as if it's a crime if you can't have a child. But I don't think so, I don't have a child, I may one day. But in the mean time I am going to share all my love.


Chorus:
Not having a child don't make me any less than a woman, you see I got so much love to give, to so much unwanted kids, you can say all you want about me trying and ruin my reputation, ah still got so much love to give to so much unwanted kids, listen to my song.


Verse 2:
I may not know the joy of giving birth, may not experience the pain and all the hurt, but I know how it feels to lose a child, and if pain is pain then I am hurting inside. If infertility makes me less than a girl, what would you say to many women in this world. Would you tell them have faith, would you tell them be strong or would you tell them that they're less than a woman?


Chorus


Verse 3:
I would give anything to have a child of my own but in the meantime let me share my happy home with the less fortunate, take away some of the stress from a child who has never known love and happiness. Miscarriages remind me of baby carriages. of Broken hearts, short flings,failed marriages, the pain never go away, we try to keep them at bay. Oh I wish if my baby could have stayed.


Chorus


Verse 4:
Some people have kids and wish them never did, some kids grew up hating the life weh them live, some have it easy, some have it hard, some mothers abandon dem pickney like dawg. But wanti wanti dem can't get it and getti getti get and run weh lef eeh. Me nuh have none so you know me will take eeh me have a lot of love so send me little Becky Ann.


Chorus


Verse 5:
You see, what I am saying is this song is dedicated to all the females who have been trying to have children but never succeed. Some have miscarriage just like myself, but you know what, don't give up, have faith, one day you may just succeed. You know what I'm saying, and don't feel you are less than a woman because you don't have a child 'cause once you give you love to other children that come. You know what I'm saying.

Another Amazing Quote

"i just want my smile on your face too" <==== that makes me cry

Yes we hope for that too....We thank you all for the unspoken love and  support.