If you have a chance in the future look up this date 6/26/13 Supreme Court Decision on Gay Marriage and Tony Soprano. Maybe you agree with the decision maybe you don't. I want you to look it up my child because it is a piece of history. I watch a news program that does today in history segment and I think man that would be great to know what happened around this time. I struggle with knowing if we will know you by the end of this year. If some will walk through our door before you. I don't know. Half of the year is gone so it's hard to tell.
I hear a constant debate about one parent staying home to raise their children, and I know if one of us could we would. That doesn't seem possible or realistic. As you will learn one day with all that is taken out and having to pay and keep a float we just have to do what we do. I will do what I can to make sure you will have the both of us as much as possible. If I can get us a few full days a month or more. It will be tricky but I will do my darndest. Maybe one day I can work part-time to adjust to your schedule. Ha if only.
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
How Many Times
http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/plumb/needyounowhowmanytimes.html
I heard this song and had to put it somewhere.
"how many times do I have to make the same mistake how many times until I learn from my mistakes"
I heard this song and had to put it somewhere.
"how many times do I have to make the same mistake how many times until I learn from my mistakes"
Monday, June 24, 2013
I'm annoyed
I'm upset annoyed frustrated and disappointed with myself for believing that you would ever see things my way. That you would ever show a small portion of empathy for my situation that you would get it. Sadly I watch as you take everyone's side and excuse them and their choices and brush me off. I thought I could talk to you I thought you would finally say "I get it." You are wrapped up in your own world of "well I didn't get this and I don't get that and no one ever does this for me or that...." Would you like to go there? Would you really like to go back in history and see who hasn't been there for who? Who could really throw the past up of boo hoo. I don't.
Friday, June 14, 2013
This will make your blood boil
The Picture said: "So it hurts to be infertile and have to hear about other women's pregnancies?
Try being a "birth mother" and having to hear about someone else raising your child."
The Comment by a random uneducated bitter who has some issues of her own "woman": " I think infertile women get off to this, once they get their hands on another's infant. It makes them feel validated. I think it makes them pathetic for expecting someone else to pay for the rest of their lives. I truly believe some of these women get off to the anguish of the natural mother. Sick, despicable human beings."
What I have to say may surprise some people. I was furious annoyed upset and just disgusted. I then realized nothing could be said to this kind of person it would be a waste of my energy. Someone who speaks this way is lacking the education and understanding of what someone goes through in the infertility journey. I will always come across people who are supportive and understanding even if they haven't walked a mile in my shoes, and then I will come across someone like this. They are out there maybe bitter about a situation from their past which leads them to say such things. I honestly feel sorry for someone like this.
Birthparents play a very important role. I do not minimize them or forget they exist. I admire their ability to say I love my child so much, and I understand that I can't give them the life they deserve. I will be selfless and put them before myself and give them a better chance. That's amazing, and something I will be so thankful for one day. Here's a great quote....
“giving up a child is not a selfish act, but rather it is a courageous act of love, on hopes to give their child a better life than what [the parents] thought they could provide.”
We should try to bring each other up not tear each other down. It saddens me that someone would say or think what that random woman did but they do exist as must as I try to think they don't. I would take someone like this on maybe in real life face to face not in the internet world. Sometimes people use the internet to hide behind their words. I doubt she would say anything like this in a public setting. I would take the opportunity to educate her. Of course I have a feeling I'd be better off applying my energy to more positive worthy things. Well you get the drift.
Try being a "birth mother" and having to hear about someone else raising your child."
The Comment by a random uneducated bitter who has some issues of her own "woman": " I think infertile women get off to this, once they get their hands on another's infant. It makes them feel validated. I think it makes them pathetic for expecting someone else to pay for the rest of their lives. I truly believe some of these women get off to the anguish of the natural mother. Sick, despicable human beings."
What I have to say may surprise some people. I was furious annoyed upset and just disgusted. I then realized nothing could be said to this kind of person it would be a waste of my energy. Someone who speaks this way is lacking the education and understanding of what someone goes through in the infertility journey. I will always come across people who are supportive and understanding even if they haven't walked a mile in my shoes, and then I will come across someone like this. They are out there maybe bitter about a situation from their past which leads them to say such things. I honestly feel sorry for someone like this.
Birthparents play a very important role. I do not minimize them or forget they exist. I admire their ability to say I love my child so much, and I understand that I can't give them the life they deserve. I will be selfless and put them before myself and give them a better chance. That's amazing, and something I will be so thankful for one day. Here's a great quote....
“giving up a child is not a selfish act, but rather it is a courageous act of love, on hopes to give their child a better life than what [the parents] thought they could provide.”
We should try to bring each other up not tear each other down. It saddens me that someone would say or think what that random woman did but they do exist as must as I try to think they don't. I would take someone like this on maybe in real life face to face not in the internet world. Sometimes people use the internet to hide behind their words. I doubt she would say anything like this in a public setting. I would take the opportunity to educate her. Of course I have a feeling I'd be better off applying my energy to more positive worthy things. Well you get the drift.
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Support System Are You There?
It's frustrating when you ask for help or advice on adoption groups and forums and no one responds. Like I swear I heard crickets.
At least google, bing and pinterest are there for me.
Maybe I have to give it more time but this experience is a hell of frustrating to begin with it's just I guess you have to be there.
Watch someone now respond.
At least google, bing and pinterest are there for me.
Maybe I have to give it more time but this experience is a hell of frustrating to begin with it's just I guess you have to be there.
Watch someone now respond.
Tuesday, June 4, 2013
Just have to wonder
When I flat out ask you question and you don't respond. Maybe you didn't see it yet or maybe your busy or maybe you didn't hear me. Sometimes you just have to wonder......
I'm certain that I'm guilty of it at times, but hey aren't we all? I'm skating between both sides of my own frustration.
This is what happens when you have been on a hormonal rollercoaster for over 2 weeks. It's a dream I tell you. I would like to break up from AF, but she doesn't seem to want to leave me. Hey AF please let go.
I'm certain that I'm guilty of it at times, but hey aren't we all? I'm skating between both sides of my own frustration.
This is what happens when you have been on a hormonal rollercoaster for over 2 weeks. It's a dream I tell you. I would like to break up from AF, but she doesn't seem to want to leave me. Hey AF please let go.
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