M has found his forever home

M is a little boy I found on adoptuskids.org and tonight I noticed that through my searching he was no longer listed. Which most likely means he has found his Forever Family. That is really great for him. He wasn't out of New Jersey and I realize that would be an adjustment for any child to go in a different state. Some require families to be in the same state these kids are from and I totally get that. Their birth family members may want visitation or contact with siblings. I knew this day would come when I didn't see him on the list but just didn't realize it would be today. I did find a little boy in New Jersey but he is allergic to dogs and cats really any animal so there went that. A lot of the kids that are featured do requiring a lot of supervision or special medical needs.

My car went in for an oil change and it needed much more than that. The most work it's needed in a long time. Tires were the only thing that we have postponed on. I don't know that I really need them. Sometimes you wonder about who you deal with and the trust you place in people. My hope is the car is good for the rest of the year.

Another development is my husband working his second job in the summer and I don't know with a child how this is going to work. It means I will have to step it up big time and truly be a single parent in the Summer. 

Hello Random Thoughts On a Saturday Night/Sunday Morning

Okay so I will do this a little different.
  So I've gotten the "I couldn't adopt I'd want my own kids." I've had a lot of thought on this. I've decided that there is no use in responding other than smiling saying yeah okay and moving on. They will be my kids. Maybe they won't have my  DNA running through there veins, but they will be totally my children who will have been born from my heart not my Uterus. I read a blog where this woman nails it right on the head and has the same reaction just a better way of phrasing it. I have found that the only regret through this process is that I didn't do this sooner. I don't push my decision on you, so please don't place your decision on me.  People who don't understand frustrate me so much.  So like I said I will continue to just smile and remain silent because it's not worth the aggravation on my end to get upset or say anything.

These are the moments

I feel like all I do in class is talk and so many feelings come up that when I get home I'm tired of talking. Does that make sense? My baby girl Pebbles is snuggled on me at the moment. This will go on all day. She will find me sitting down and make herself comfy. I woke up she was in my arms purring and giving kisses. I don't know how she will handle a new person in the house, but something tells me another person to snuggle with, play with her, feed her, and so on isn't a bad idea in her book. I know I have a lot to do today or more like this weekend but this moment of snuggles while I research ideas for my future kids, check pinterest, check my email, and watch whats on tv is a great moment in my book.

My cell phone just went off and it's nowhere near me. Ugg this moment may have to be put on hold for a few. 

When I Said I Do

When I Said I Do

My Soundtrack Through The Process

God Gave Me You - Blake Shelton

Love's Divine - Seal

Waiting For You - Seal

Bless The Broken Road - Rascal Flatts

You Won't Ever Be Lonley - Andy Griggs 

For You I Will - Monica

Always Tomorrow - Gloria Estefan

Make it Happen - Mariah Carey 

Walk On Faith - Mike Reid 

I Believe - Diamond Rio

One More Day - Diamon Rio

Somewhere out there

Diamond and Pearls - Prince

Home

Terri Clark - No Fear

Standing Outside The Fire - Garth Brooks

Hitting a wall

It could be a coincidence, but I am annoyed. So I have contacted reached out to several organizations about different issues with websites, requesting additional information, asking questions, and so on. Do you know that not one of them have gotten back to me? I'm sure it's understaffed and overworked. I know I am currently in that situation and know many others who are as well. It's just I see all these gaps that make it impossible to find a starting point, get a questioned answered, get additional information, and so on. Shouldn't be this hard and yet it is.......