I asked for a sign but I don't know.....

A friend spoke of her intention to have a second child. I laughed to myself "i would be happy with just one." So at the end of the evening I am putting up laundry and I said "if I will be a parent in a year from now then give me a sign like a light going out...." As I continued to hang up and put away nothing.....I smiled as I left the room and thought I was being foolish and as I went to leave the light over my head went out.......Maybe in a year from now I will be able to tell if it was a freak thing or truly the sign I had asked for.

I wish someone would come along and say you are going to get to motherhood your journey has the happy ending in site.....but that isn't going to happen and no one truly knows. So i'm left with some bit of hope the dries up faster and faster.