I won't go into everything that happened at the doctors yesterday but it wasn't the greatest experience. The short of it is my current RE and I are parting ways he doesn't know that yet. My weight loss is not moving fast enough for him and as he stated yesterday I must not really want to be a mom and I'm not taking this very seriously. He said a lot to me yesterday. At one point he opened up my chart said re:"you have a high thyroid..oh wait wrong line. So we ready for a second IUI?"
Me: you told me we were going to pursue IVF.
re: "Oh I did? Are you still on clomid and metformin?"
Me: You took me off Metformin last time I saw you and I haven't been on clomid in over a year.
re: "I did? Let me see here."
At one point he said my husbands sperm was diminishing everyday and the longer we wait the less of a chance anything is going to work and we might want to look into freezing it. Yeah it just got worse and worse. I kept looking at my purse debating if I should pick it up and get out of there. I was able to make it out of the office and to my car before I burst into tears and spent what felt like forever to get my emotions in check enough to drive home.
I had a previous RE who was so different and great but my insurance wasn't going to pay for them anymore. I'm very frustrated and partly upset. I talked it out last night with a few different people and was able to get into work today. A girl who just got married is now pregnant and told everyone at work today. I said how great it was and glad she is so happy. Honestly I wouldn't wish my experience on anyone.
I don't know what the next step is going to be but i'm at a stand still. A break from the medical profession and focusing on me and my husband. I need to re calculate. I'm a little lost at the moment.
